We got a call today about two more kids that need placed. They are also potentially going back to family whihc scares me terribly. Not because of what it will do to DH and I but what it will do to DS2. We are trusting that the Lord knows what is best and will make the decision, but in the meantime....I hate limbo!!!!!!!
Archive for August, 2006
Other than the interesting task of getting a 3 year old to sleep in a sleeping bag in a tent the weekend was fantastic. I love cooking over an open fire and impressed my DH a couple times with the things I made. At the end of the weekend I commented that we weren't even tempted to go out all weekend (a biggie for us) because we used a campfire. He agreed that this is a cheap way of restraining him from wanting to go out. I have also started giving him a picnic lunch and his son once a week on his lunch hour which they both love. We're going one more weekend in September and we can all hardly wait. If this is workable we may start looking for camp places instead of hotels on our way East to see the kids and grandkids.
It is frustrating to me how far we are not ahead!! Our EF had to take a break thanks to new tires (yes that is an emergency when you have to get out of town and one is flat) and a night at a hotel while we waited for the tire place to open. Oh well, at least we have it to use and it isn't on our credit cards. We are starting a ministry project that costs us about 500 to begin. That is OK we had that saved for the project and will probably enjoy doing it. What isn't ok is some charges that are on that the money wasn't put away for. We can cover it but I am not happy about it. I will be much happier when the car is paid off. Then there will be alot more play in the budget that we can use for saving for a down payment and building the EF faster. Of course if we haven't been successful in our domestic adoption we will probably opt to keep renting and try to adopt internationally. Expensive but we aren't geting any younger and need to get this done soon. The car has about 5 more payments. I am planning on doing it in 4 at worst. I suppose I should be encouraged as my DH says, 4 years ago we were into big negative numbers on our balance sheet and now they are positive, small but positive. He's right but....
We're going camping tomorrow for two nights. We have a two room tent that we picked up at a garage sale. We includes a 3 year old (barely)child who needs a light on to sleep peacefully. I can't imagine this but soon I won't have to imagine it. I can't imagine my stress level rising but again it could be soon!!!
Limbo is NOT a fun place to live. We are planning on joining a church near us however we got an email about a job that DH interviewed for several months ago. In the same week we got a request for our case study to be submitted for a trio of kids that will be available for adoption locally. Our lease is up in the spring and we would like to move or buy or both. I probably can't buy because I just found out my X had a car repoed that was in both our names. This is after he defaulted on a loan also in both names and didn't pay th etaxes he was supposed too. I've been divorced for 5 years when does it stop haunting you!!!??? I paid all of the obligations the court decided was mine before the divorce paper was dry. Oh well, At least we are on the right track. I just wish I knew what the Lord wanted, a different job and kids there or kids here and the same job.Oh well sooner (probably later) we'll know.
Today my DH took me out for our anniversary. We went to a free zoo a couple hours away and walked around. Then we went to Red Lobster for lunch. After that we went to a local county fair and saw alot of cows (it is Wisconsin after all) and played midway games and rode rides. Our 3 year old had a blast and so did we. Of course we spent part of the time saying if we had three more we'd........ He said the best part of the afternoon was the Ferris Wheel.
I haven't blogged for awhile. Figured no body would be interested in all the things that happen to me, which is to say very little!! However we are awaiting news on two things. Or maybe I should say 4 things only three aren't things but people. anyway we got a call that there may be 3 little girls available for us to adopt. We also got an email that a job we have been courting since oh about 8 to 9 months ago may be opening up. If we get one we don't get the other. The fun part will be figuring out what God want sus to do!! The job gets us closer to the two older kids and all 7 living grandchildren which is a big big plus. Having more kids is a dream and getting three under 4 at once awesome. We're going to leav eit in God's hands for now.